Poetry

Frisson

Written 16th June 2022


I learnt a new word

That I’ve never heard before

That describes something amazing

 Something I absolutely adore…

That feeling of elation

Combined with aesthetic chills

 That listening to music

So often instils

Or perhaps a beautiful sight

Triggers it off

Those goosebumps

Those tingles

From your head to the floor

It’s like electricity shooting

Across your skin

Absolute bliss

Bubbling up from within

And I’m sure I’m not imagining

 This to be true

But these days my frisson

 Is more regularly accrued

On the odd occasion, it’s so intense

It bubbles up in tears

 Catching me off guard

Completely unawares

Yesterday it happened

At one of my favourite schools

While chatting to a young teacher

It’s not often you find a man

Teaching 5-year-olds

His most challenging child

Entered the class

This teacher’s face lit up

With genuine joy that surpassed

 Anything I have seen

In such a long time…

 As he got on his knees to engage

His attunement was sublime

He laughed and chatted

So happily with this kid

I felt overwhelmed by my emotions

They were flying off the grid

he said

And from the look on his face

It could only be true

And Billy was elated

He stared adoringly at this man

Glowing in the eyes of someone

Who believes that you can

My eyes fill with tears

I was all ‘frissoned’ up

Witnessing the joy

I was so unbelievably touched

I didn’t cry

 But I had to walk away

To settle the emotions

That wanted to splay

And although the frisson was over quick

The happiness stayed

I adored my time in his class

I had such an amazing day

Beautiful kids

Who are so calm and serene

Who clearly feel validated

Cherished and seen

Not a single fight

Just happy regulated kids

Who are so excited to play

And I love how this school

Is so different from the rest

Because in Reception, at age five

The kids do what kids do best

They play

They have fun

They spontaneously create

The most wonderful creations

Every single day

Constantly making books

Things they have designed

Shouldn’t creativity and fun

Be every reception’s baseline?

And for the whole day I kept wondering…

Imagine if this were how…

All schools were run

Wouldn’t that just be “Wow”

Where the teachers are regulated

Calm and intune

Where children are seen

And not emotionally lampooned

So I am grateful for this day

In Ventral Vagal state

Feeling like someone had opened

An emotional flood gate

Of warmth and good feeling

That connected every part of me

Not an inch of stress

Not an inch of anxiety

I feel the need to add that Pablo is possibly one of the most loving and affectionate cats I have ever had the pleasure of looking after