I am still alive and healthy. Random thoughts I’ve been thinking about this week. One of the terms of this medical trial was that they would pay for all my transport costs to and from the clinic for every weekly visit that I would need to make. Initially, me being me, I thought it didn’t …
Category: Internal Family Systems (Parts work)
My side of the debate: Crate training
Written 9 September 2022 Grounded It’s been an awesome weekFloating on a chilled-out kind of highI’m chatting to everyoneFriendliness in constant supply It feels amazingI feel grounded and safeNot constantly hypervigilantWalking on eggshells most days I’ve felt this beforeYes, this much is trueThis beautiful expansionWhere only love shines through I named this part ‘Carys’My inner …
Skinless
Approximate reading time: 9min Written 19 September 2021 I woke up this morning Glued to my bed Emotional and exhausted Poor dog needing to be fed I could feel her lying Quietly next to me Not crying or moaning Just waiting patiently But I couldn’t move So I slept for another two hours I’m normally …
Accept What Is
Approximate reading time: 4 min I’m back!! 🙂 It’s been a while, I know. I’m not going to apologise for the long silence, because I know I needed it. It’s been a pretty eventful year, full of big lessons I’m still processing, and not quite ready to commit to paper just yet. (All in good …
A Game of Catch Up
Approximate reading time: 8 min Written: 18th of July 2022 It feels pretty amazing To write a poem again I haven’t written in ages It feels good to dive in Even if it’s one That’s brimming with rage Things always feel better When they are down on the page So, I’ve had COVID (The bug …
And so it begins again…
Approximate reading time: 8 min So, I had a date on Friday. I know, I know …a bona fide date…..unfucking believable:-) These last couple of months, I have been feeling a wee, little bit disheartened about the whole dating thing. (It comes and goes in cycles – but this cycle, entwined with being a newly …
When Connection Takes a Backseat
Approximate reading time: 13min Wednesday 16th July It has been another week of coughing, so I haven’t been able to teach much. I tried to go back to school yesterday, but by the end of the day, I had no voice, so alas, today has been another day off, trying to rest. On the plus …
Goodbyes and New Beginnings
Approximate reading time: 10 min I realise sometimes my poems must make me sound like a stark raving lunatic. All these different characters and voices. A nut job who talks to herself….I’m pretty sure in some countries I could be locked up for that. The beauty is, I am past caring. It was a relief …
My family of Parts
Approximate reading time: 10min 31st October 2021 I awoke this morning With that familiar dread A headache A stuffy nose Anxious thoughts in my head I notice a voice Bitterly say “So much for the calmness You preached yesterday!” I peer outside The rain is pouring down No garden this morning “Fuck it!” I frown …
Mara-Kares
Approximate reading time: 8min Written on the 30th October 2021 Last night I watched a mini-series (On Netflix) About a boy tortured by his parents (It’s enough to make you feel sick) Gabriel Fernandez, a gorgeous 8-year-old child Who for 8 months of his life Was so unbelievably defiled Until it ended with his fatal …