Approximate reading time: 12 min It feels like my inner children Lila, Lola and Mara-Keres are currently fighting to the death for the possession of my body. Frankly, I would rather not be writing anything in this state. How I have handled them in the past is to simply fall off the radar until I …
Category: Anger
The Teenage Rant
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written 27th July 2021 So continuing with my session my friend asked me the age Of this inner little critic Who keeps taking centre stage Urg I know who it is Neurotic Angel through and through My inner teenage counterpart Who sticks to me like glue She never feels nearly …
A bull in a china shop
Approximate reading time: 2 min 13/07/21 It’s been a bit of an emotional day I approached the headteacher A little disgruntled to say “I’m really upset lunch was 15 minutes late” (If I’m honest, I was exhausted finding it hard to regulate) Nursery and reception have no morning break For lunchtime, we are allocated 30 …
Dear John
Approximate reading time: 8 min Written the 7th July 2022 My teaching assistant John walked out today Irritated and angry that I had the audacity to say “I’m so frustrated I have so much work to get through It really doesn’t help when I have to do your job to” In fairness, he was leaving …
How hard?
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 1st July 2021 It’s been a horrible week Triggering so much shame Dealing with a toxic parent who is so quick to blame I wish I had the courage to call her on her shit To stand up for myself put a stop to this But alas that’s not …
So much for honesty
Approximate reading time: 10min Written the 25th June 2021 I was offered this reception job On a full-time contract Finally paid for the summer holidays (Fantastic! Imagine that!) After ten long years of being self-employed A regular pay check I was overjoyed Absolutely elated things were finally on track Except for one tiny minuscule, little fact …
Rage in my jaw
Written the 19th June 2021 I woke up this morning I lay awake Willing myself a fresh start to make Conscious now a fundamental shift in me Not so tormented by dreaded anxiety Except for the last two weeks (since my wrathful birthday poem) Fury, anger and rage will not leave me alone It’s like …
Manic Monday
Approximate reading time: 10 min I have a confession to make. When I posted my “I’m sooooo happy post” last Monday I had pretty much had the worst day teaching I have had in just over a year. (It was horrible) All I needed to do was come home and proofread my post, one last …
Happy anniversary (Me!)
Approximate reading time: 7 min I hope you are all well:-) Today is the one-year anniversary of me posting a blog post every week (at least) for a full year. (It may not seem like that big a deal to most people but for me it’s huge!!) It’s only taken 13 years of intermittent blogging …
Learning to dialogue
Approximate reading time: 11 min I am officially 48! (I am happy to report it is not nearly as scary as I might have imagined!) So, it’s been one of those weeks that started out amazingly (As all birthday weeks should start) and then nose-dived into a pile of inner child madness!!! This is what …