Approximate reading time: 10min I hope you are all well:-) I am happy to report it has been a relatively drama-free week!! (Yayeeeee me!) Of course, it has helped that I have been on holiday for a week and have not had to engage much with the general public. Random VERY IMPORTANT Information: I have …
Category: Anger
I want to quit
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written the 27th May 2021 I want to quit (every second day) 12 weeks to go should I just walk away? It’s more painful than I can ever describe Feelings of overwhelm from which I cannot hide When children’s happiness is being put last It’s such a painful trigger (a …
Dearest Yoga Boy
Approximate reading time: 2min Written the 24 May 2021 Three weeks of yoga (I should be Zen and so calm) But I’m compelled to vent and raise the alarm! Fuck you irritate the absolute shit out of me How on earth did I not initially, see? Was I mad in my head to pay …
Dysregulation
Approximate reading time: 6 minutes I find it very interesting how so much of my life at the moment, somehow seems to link in with each new poem at hand. Same life lessons, different contexts. ****** So, last week was pretty great. I was a happy mummy to one doggy child. While walking Bailey …
The final decision
Approximate Reading time: 10 min Written 22nd of April 2021 My first EMDR session was scheduled for today I woke up more anxious than I care to say I’m not a morning person (Understatement of the year) Sometimes it’s 2pm before my anxiety disappears When I’m feeling like this the walk to school is never …
Exhaustion
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 14th of April 2021 I’m exhausted! I’m exhausted! I’m so fucking tired My defences are shot I feel so completely wired No safety, no containment just over-sensitivity I’m so fucking exhausted of people’s opinions hurting me I get it! I know… I give them that power I’m the one …
The “Enablers”
Approximate Reading time: 6 min Written 4th April 2012 I’m feeling a little irritated going to purge it out A random comment passed today Which was essentially about… My interaction with Jude (the horrible cook) On our engagement yesterday in which we both partook The headteacher gave reassurance I’m not the only one Who finds …
Finding my words…
Approximate reading time: 14 min Thank you for all the prayers…. Poppy is pooping again! (It’s not quite the right colour mind you, but one must be grateful for small miracles. 😉 As I said in my post on Saturday this poem took me almost two months to write. Two months of continual fighting with …
Frankie & Johnny
Approximate Reading time: 8 min Written 8th March 2021 I watched an old movie late last night which left me feeling irritably contrite Michelle Pfeiffer , Al Pacino in “Frankie and Johnny” pretty good reviews as far as I could see “The perfect love story, for these troubled times” “A feel-good romantic comedy!” were some …
Childless by Chance
Written 17th March 2021 Grief like love takes on many forms, yet we live in a world that so often ignores… “Be positive Don’t look back always uplift. You, alone have the power to make the mind shift!” But so many griefs are engraved in our souls, A child losing a parent will always leave …