So I’m 44 years old today…

I’ll be honest, when I look at my life I have absolutely nothing that I thought I wanted by this age.

I have no husband, I have no kids, I don’t a have fiance, a boyfriend..or even a friend with benefits 😏 I don’t have a permanent job and I don’t own a car. I live in a single room, in a house with 21 other people (20 of whom are couples). I have no lounge, a continuous end of other people dirty dishes and the fuckers keep stealing my loo paper. My long-term goals continue to be a blurry enigma…(mmm what will I do when I grow up?) Honestly these days my life is one big fat question mark…

But this is what I do have. I have 23 gorgeous little four-year-olds that are excited to see me every day. (The feeling is mutual). I have the best health I have had in years. I have the freedom to be completely selfish and the time to look after my own physical and emotional needs. I have a strong support network of amazing friends and family…that have helped shape me into the person I am today. I love them all more than words and I am grateful every day that they are all healthy and happy.

I have discovered I have a voice. I am passionate about writing and it keeps me fulfilled, happy and busy. These days feeling contented and grounded is becoming my default setting. I may not have experienced the gift of creating a child but I am getting pretty good at creating my own joy in other ways. (I’m grateful beyond words for that)

But most of all I have faith. Faith that the universe has my back, and that no matter what, I am never truly alone. Faith that right now, I am exactly where I am meant to be and hopeful that there is still so much more to come. From where I am sitting life at 44 is looking pretty fucking amazing!🤗💪💘😍💖

Thanks for all the lovely messages today. As always I feel very loved.

With Love