Approximate reading time: 13 min I kind of feel like this poem needs to come with a warning! From someone who spent years following other people’s spiritual teachings, sucking it all in, trying to mould myself to somehow fit into other people’s paths the last thing I would EVER want to do is to imply …
Category: Anger
The Power of Words
Approximate reading time: 12min In 2021 I accepted a job teaching in a reception class for 6 months. Yes, I had previously sworn NEVER EVER to go back into long-term teaching again, (numerous times.) But it was one of those situations where everything just seemed to dam-near perfect. 1. The class was amazingly well-behaved. 2. …
R.A.G.E
Approximate reading time: 15 min It’s been a while, I know, I know ..a whole 6 days….I’m clearly slipping.:-) I will admit Neurotic Angel woke me up in a blind panic a couple of nights ago. Something along the lines of: “If you post a blog post EVERY SINGLE DAY then your subscribers are going …
The pain of not being seen
Estimated reading time: 5min I found this little story below in my journal a couple of weeks ago. The horrible thing about becoming more aware of what is going on around you is that once you start seeing something, you can’t EVER go back to “unseeing it” Which, honestly sometimes fucking sucks! I wish I …
That WAS the plan! (PART 1)
Approximate reading time: 20 min Just warning you, you might need to make some tea….this is gonna be a long one:-) Quite a lot has gone on these last two years so I thought I might do a little catch-up with all that I have been doing with my time. I mentioned in my “The …
Forgiveness
(Written 26 February 2021) Forgiveness A word A feeling A thought So difficult to explain… Forgiveness A word A feeling A thought Intertwines with Insidious shame… Anger seethes Like a dog gnaws a bone I say “I’m okay” In my head, I throw stones Why was I born With a skin of cellophane Words burn …
Red Hot Shame
Oh My God, I’m on a roll!! 🙂 5th post in 10 days!! It’s amazing how much easier it’s getting to click that little (Could the internal angst be subsiding?) Although that being said….I still don’t share my blog posts on Facebook or Instagram. I used to when I posted a couple of years ago…. …
The Parts of Me
(Written 14th March 2021) I was lying in bed Struggling to get up This overwhelming feeling My heart feels shut Anxiety has gripped me Badly this week Poetry has been hiding Refusing to speak Most days I struggle To even meditate I’ve cried so much It’s hard to regulate So, I crawl back into bed …
Anxiety
Hello all, So, on re-editing the old posts that I found in my “Post Graveyard” I found myself a wee bit confused. Wow! I sounded so happy! I said things like “Life was great” and “I have so much to be grateful for“. I just sounded so dam fucking perky! I found a huge part …
The one about the wedding dress…(Continued)
Hello all, I know, I know it feels like Christmas. 3 posts in one week! After 2 years of deathly silence, even I am in shock! Anyway, so my story continues with me now still owning two ‘bloodied’ wedding dresses that I cannot exchange AND apparently I still need to pass “Assertiveness Skills 101!” I …