Approximate Reading time: 10 min Written 22nd of April 2021 My first EMDR session was scheduled for today I woke up more anxious than I care to say I’m not a morning person (Understatement of the year) Sometimes it’s 2pm before my anxiety disappears When I’m feeling like this the walk to school is never …
Category: Poetry
The Grumpy one
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written the 20th April 2021 I want to write about something That triggers me so It’s been a long time coming (so finally here I go) My TA, Mrs Shawnigan Has been at the school for years I’m 100% certain she genuinely cares She is good at her job she …
A walk with an HSP
Approximate reading time: 5 minutes Written the 18th April 2021 I woke up this morning feeling so light Free from the anxiety That has gripped my chest tight Not one single dream well not that I remember Nothing to analyse (or meticulously dismember) Just happiness Relief I will get through I have the tools I …
On the wings of a dream
Approximate reading time: 6 minutes Written the 17 April 2021 Last night’s dream was more gruesome than I’d like to admit I don’t really want to write… it feels pretty shit But my poetry was started from analysing my dreams somehow journaling them brings clarity (well so it seems) An ex-friend someone I used to …
Exhaustion
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 14th of April 2021 I’m exhausted! I’m exhausted! I’m so fucking tired My defences are shot I feel so completely wired No safety, no containment just over-sensitivity I’m so fucking exhausted of people’s opinions hurting me I get it! I know… I give them that power I’m the one …
Orchids and Dandelions
Approximate reading time: 9min So, I declared to my therapist, rather determinedly, last week that I wasn’t going to take on any more dog-sitting jobs that were longer than a couple of days. (10 days is just too long!) It was an epiphany moment of self-love and genuine self-care I tell you! My reasons were …
Developmental Trauma
Approximate reading time 15 min Happy Easter:-) Today was my last day with Poppy and Ginger. What can I say, as always they were adorable. They pretty much followed me everywhere in that house for ten days solid. Poppy was happy to sleep in the room that I was occupying. But Ginger wouldn’t sleep unless …
The “Enablers”
Approximate Reading time: 6 min Written 4th April 2012 I’m feeling a little irritated going to purge it out A random comment passed today Which was essentially about… My interaction with Jude (the horrible cook) On our engagement yesterday in which we both partook The headteacher gave reassurance I’m not the only one Who finds …
Your Poem
Approximate reading time: 7min Written 2nd April 2021 I don’t really write about my dreams anymore They pretty much continue as they always have before Random images from my distant past memories, old ghosts never an A list-cast But last night you were back in them again I have dreamed of you since I don’t …
Finding my words…
Approximate reading time: 14 min Thank you for all the prayers…. Poppy is pooping again! (It’s not quite the right colour mind you, but one must be grateful for small miracles. 😉 As I said in my post on Saturday this poem took me almost two months to write. Two months of continual fighting with …