Written the 7th August 2021

Tonight, I practised

 Compassionate Inquiry

For the first time

On a genuine person

My very first client

(Well technically it was pro bono

No money was exchanged

But at least it’s a start

So I’m not going to complain)

I’ve been a qualified life coach

 For ten years now

 I have life experience

And the basic know-how

But alas not a single

Client have I ever had

Continually feeling bogged down

(I must be that bad?)

“How can you life coach others

 When your life is so incomplete?”

  Has been my very toxic

  Limiting belief

Reiterated by Neurotic Angel

 Over and over again

Waiting for a magic sign:

She says things like:

“Seriously who do you think you are?

You are nowhere near ‘sorted’

 You are so very far

I mean honestly you truly

 Have nothing to show

You are still single

 No children

 You haven’t even started to grow.”

But tonight, for the first time

I just felt so grounded to the floor

My  inner child didn’t bulk

Make a mad dash for the door

Even Neurotic Angel was silent

(I never heard a peep)

I stayed present and held the space

For my client to simply speak…

It was like having this inner voice

 Whispering gently in my ear

“You’ve got this

You’ve got this

Just quietly persevere

You don’t need to have all the answers

 It’s not your job to fix

All you can do is hold the space

 They will lay their own bricks”

My chest was a complete knot

I acknowledged it, let it be

As I listened to this voice

 Quietly reminding me

“Everyone gets anxious

 You are only human

But I think it’s now time

For your life to begin

You have so much love to offer

You really and truly do

I’m so incredibly proud

So proud of you!”