Written 2 April 2021
I’m still trying to finish
A month and a half later
isn’t that absurd
I’m suddenly very mindful
that I need to take a break
I’m emotional, teary
my chest physically aches
So I quietly sit down
take some time to meditate
A hopeful attempt, perhaps
some calmness to generate
As I’m sitting I notice
words running through my mind
“Be conscious of your body
Watch what you find
Whatever you are feeling
simply acknowledge it as seen”
for 11 years my chest
has been warning me
Like my very own ‘Canary’
when my anxiety grips
It warns me to step back
to simply acknowledge it
So, like my tears I’m going
to give it the space it needs
Accept it with grace
and finally concede
That I don’t need to make it stop
or see it as innately bad
How much better to befriend it
And accept it as a comrade
Be grateful that my chest
is my bodies alarm bell
That simply alerts me
when things aren’t going well
So, thank you ‘constriction’
for playing the valuable part
in warning me that I have to
start taking care of my heart