Years ago when I started life coaching I also started seeing a therapist at roughly the same time. One day I remember very excitedly coming to tell him that I had started doing “positive” affirmations every day to change all my “negative thinking” he very gently said ” it’s not always as easy as that Gayle.” I was internally absolutely livid😤…I felt very angry that he wasn’t ‘supporting’ may need to be ‘positive’. Of course, I never spoke up or questioned him on this. I simply made the judgment that he had no support of life-coaching and I subsequently ended sessions with him, without so much as an explanation. He tried to call me and left a message asking me to please just come and speak to him as closure in therapy is very important. Unfortunately, my avoidant part was running the show and I couldn’t face actually dealing with my negative emotions towards him and I most certainly could never have spoken about my anger and frustration with him. I often think of him….for the time I was with him…he was a wonderful, loving therapist and yet I just threw him away because I disagreed with what he said. 😬😕 

Now that I have successfully spent a significant amount of time in therapy and I actually get what he means. I couldn’t really change my negative thoughts or behaviours without actually understanding the emotions and feelings behind them. They always say when you start therapy it initially gets ‘worse’ before it gets better because you actually have to pull out and examine all the negativity. You have to learn to sit with it, rather than run from it. It’s not easy…but it is so worth it. I truly feel my greatest healing has come from learning to be vulnerable and honest about my negative emotions rather than trying to pretend they don’t exist. So I loved what this woman has to say.

So for my lovely therapist (who’s name I can’t even remember 😩😂) this is my apology to you.

Have a beautiful day
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