Approximate reading time: 8 min Written the 7th July 2022 My teaching assistant John walked out today Irritated and angry that I had the audacity to say “I’m so frustrated I have so much work to get through It really doesn’t help when I have to do your job to” In fairness, he was leaving …
Category: Anger
How hard?
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 1st July 2021 It’s been a horrible week Triggering so much shame Dealing with a toxic parent who is so quick to blame I wish I had the courage to call her on her shit To stand up for myself put a stop to this But alas that’s not …
So much for honesty
Approximate reading time: 10min Written the 25th June 2021 I was offered this reception job On a full-time contract Finally paid for the summer holidays (Fantastic! Imagine that!) After ten long years of being self-employed A regular pay check I was overjoyed Absolutely elated things were finally on track Except for one tiny minuscule, little fact …
Rage in my jaw
Written the 19th June 2021 I woke up this morning I lay awake Willing myself a fresh start to make Conscious now a fundamental shift in me Not so tormented by dreaded anxiety Except for the last two weeks (since my wrathful birthday poem) Fury, anger and rage will not leave me alone It’s like …
Manic Monday
Approximate reading time: 10 min I have a confession to make. When I posted my “I’m sooooo happy post” last Monday I had pretty much had the worst day teaching I have had in just over a year. (It was horrible) All I needed to do was come home and proofread my post, one last …
Happy anniversary (Me!)
Approximate reading time: 7 min I hope you are all well:-) Today is the one-year anniversary of me posting a blog post every week (at least) for a full year. (It may not seem like that big a deal to most people but for me it’s huge!!) It’s only taken 13 years of intermittent blogging …
Learning to dialogue
Approximate reading time: 11 min I am officially 48! (I am happy to report it is not nearly as scary as I might have imagined!) So, it’s been one of those weeks that started out amazingly (As all birthday weeks should start) and then nose-dived into a pile of inner child madness!!! This is what …
The ‘Fakeness’ Queen
Approximate reading time: 10min I hope you are all well:-) I am happy to report it has been a relatively drama-free week!! (Yayeeeee me!) Of course, it has helped that I have been on holiday for a week and have not had to engage much with the general public. Random VERY IMPORTANT Information: I have …
I want to quit
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written the 27th May 2021 I want to quit (every second day) 12 weeks to go should I just walk away? It’s more painful than I can ever describe Feelings of overwhelm from which I cannot hide When children’s happiness is being put last It’s such a painful trigger (a …
Dearest Yoga Boy
Approximate reading time: 2min Written the 24 May 2021 Three weeks of yoga (I should be Zen and so calm) But I’m compelled to vent To raise the alarm Fuck you irritate The absolute shit out of me How on earth did I not Initially, see Was I mad in my head To pay …