Ok so just woke up from zombie apocalypse dream 💀👹😱😰…(Google dream interpreter says: 
“To dream that you are attacked by zombies can represent your fears of being helpless and overpowered.” 
Mmmm…..that sounds suspiciously like my love life ( I am going, to be honest…I wrote the post below on Monday morning…but then didn’t really have the guts to put it up. I’m going to take zombie dream as a sign to just do it….😊)

What I love about so many of the people in my life is how supportive and encouraging they always are. That is not to say as a single, almost 43 years old ( oh my God) I haven’t received my fair share of ‘unsolicited’ advice about what I must be doing wrong…..My all-time favourite is ” You do know Gayle….there is no such thing as a “perfect man? ” 😣. The truth is no one has spent more time psychoanalysing and working on her “flaws” than me in the last 15 years. 
1. Too codependent in relationships? (‘Yip! ‘ two years of Co-dependence Anonymous groups for you)✔
2. Struggle to open up emotionally in relationships? ( ‘oh hell yes’ 😖 off to therapy you go young lady.)✔ 
3.Not financially secure enough and feel like you need to be rescued. (Mortifying as it is to admit…..um yes😱. Become self-employed. Build your own business and learn to toughen up and look after your own financial needs) ✔✔
4. Don’t have enough hobbies and things that you are passionate about in your life? (Eish nothing😯. Start pole dancing, ice-skating, mosaicing and pilates)✔
5. Never feel good enough or worthy enough? (No never!!! Watch thousands of hours of inspirational youtube videos?🤔)✔
6. An anxious wreck at times? (Me??? Never😉 start meditating every day.)✔.
7. Not proactive enough? (Start online dating) ✔
8. Keep attracting men who lie about their smoking! ( Ummm stop lying about your smoking Gayle…….and kick the bloody habit) ✔ 
8. Too independent and strong maybe? In complete contradiction to point 1… I know….but I am a Gemini😏. (Spend 3 years thoroughly scrutinizing the blogs of online dating coaches. Learn how to be less of a control freak and trust that the right man will be brave enough to pursue me. Let go of the men who can’t commit. (That’s been a hard one )✔
9. Highly sensitive, over analyse and overthink everything? (Oooooh yes, yes yes😏. Learn to love those parts of yourself unconditionally and then continually practice being vulnerable and putting it all down in print. (Scary as hell but if even one women relates to ‘my experiences’ and feels a little less alone then surely it would be worth it?)✔

So my point is …I genuinely think I get that there is no such thing as a “perfect man”. I think from now on my answer to that comment is that I am simply waiting for my “high-value man.” Someone who has put as much effort and time into building himself up into his better self as I feel I have. Someone that gets that happiness is an inside job, who is following his own bliss. Maybe to others that might seem like I’m waiting for perfection ….but I have already waited this long… so I am going to just keep the faith that he is out there.

Random Story: My grandmother only met and married my grandfather when she was 30. (In those days she would have literally been on the shelf and  …….ummmmm completely  ‘pickled ‘) Incidentally, they were engaged to be married when my grandfather volunteered to go do service in the war.  I remember her telling me how he had asked her if she wanted to wait to get married after the war. Her definite response was: “YOU marry me now or never!!” She clearly wasn’t going to wait any longer!:-)

I have to say my grandparents had the most amazing, beautiful love. Even in their 80’s they walked around always holding hands…. and they have always been such an inspiration to me.

My oldest brother recently got married at 47 and had his first child at 48..(I have never seen him happier😄….mmmm… exhausted but happy😂)..what can I say? ….I come from a family of late, late bloomers… 
I am ok with that.

So thanks for listening….its good to get that out😎 (Ps I love Matthew Hussey😍)
Have a beautiful day😍😘💓💖💞