Approximate reading time: 4 min Written 28th April 2021 Bessel Van de Kolk Author of the ‘The body keeps score’ Quotes nothing heals trauma Significantly more Than doing dreaded yoga Connecting to your breath…. (Honestly, I’d rather Pull all my teeth instead) I’ve tried stupid yoga Many times before Every single time I want to …
My Tears
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written on the 28 th 2021 Memories this morning of being a little girl tears overflowed when I got overwhelmed Hating the anger Hearing those words shout “Keep it up and I’ll give you something to cry about!” As if my frustration and hurt simply weren’t enough I grew …
Duck Boy
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written 24th April 2021 Duck Boy I have something pivotal that I need to express I’m allergic to dating I feel I must confess When it comes to dating my patience is gone I am so fucking exhausted to even think of ‘the one’ But I said ‘yes‘ to a …
The final decision
Approximate Reading time: 10 min Written 22nd of April 2021 My first EMDR session was scheduled for today I woke up more anxious than I care to say I’m not a morning person (Understatement of the year) Sometimes it’s 2pm before my anxiety disappears When I’m feeling like this the walk to school is never …
The Grumpy one
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written the 20th April 2021 I want to write about something That triggers me so It’s been a long time coming (so finally here I go) My TA, Mrs Shawnigan Has been at the school for years I’m 100% certain She genuinely cares She is good at her job She …
A walk with an HSP
Approximate reading time: 5 minutes Written the 18th April 2021 I woke up this morning feeling so light Free from the anxiety That has gripped my chest tight Not one single dream well not that I remember Nothing to analyse (or meticulously dismember) Just happiness Relief I will get through I have the tools I …
On the wings of a dream
Approximate reading time: 6 minutes Written the 17 April 2021 Last night’s dream was more gruesome than I’d like to admit I don’t really want to write… it feels pretty shit But my poetry was started from analysing my dreams somehow journaling them brings clarity (well so it seems) An ex-friend someone I used to …
Loved
Written 15th April 2021 I’m sitting in my chair overwhelmed with gratitude tears stream down my face what else can I do? But capture this feeling of absolute love put down on paper what it feels like to be enough It’s been a horrible day still reeling emotionally inside completely exhausted still wanting to hide …
Exhaustion
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 14th of April 2021 I’m exhausted! I’m exhausted! I’m so fucking tired My defences are shot I feel so completely wired No safety, no containment just over-sensitivity I’m so fucking exhausted of people’s opinions hurting me I get it! I know… I give them that power I’m the one …
Orchids and Dandelions
Approximate reading time: 9min So, I declared to my therapist, rather determinedly, last week that I wasn’t going to take on any more dog-sitting jobs that were longer than a couple of days. (10 days is just too long!) It was an epiphany moment of self-love and genuine self-care I tell you! My reasons were …