Approximate reading time: 4min Written the 4th June 2021 A gorgeous cabin in New Forest for the weekend my first holiday EVER away with my best friend I should feel happy, excited to finally be getting away by the time I boarded the train I felt nothing but dismay Completely overwhelmed drowned by anxiety OMG …
Gaslighting yourself
Approximate reading time: 4 min I have had a pretty good week. Dare I say it…..??? ….but it feels like I am starting to land up at some lovely schools these days….. Maybe the schools are better or maybe I am just a bit tougher in myself and not reacting as much, as I used …
The Greatest Job
Written 1st of June 2023 I dreamed of a huge ship from bow to stern overflowing with kids all wanting to learn We had to fill up baskets with thousands of balls bouncing around the ship thousands and more The aim of the game learning to work as a team helping them to formulate …
Learning to dialogue
Approximate reading time: 11 min I am officially 48! (I am happy to report it is not nearly as scary as I might have imagined!) So, it’s been one of those weeks that started out amazingly (As all birthday weeks should start) and then nose-dived into a pile of inner child madness!!! This is what …
The ‘Fakeness’ Queen
Approximate reading time: 10min I hope you are all well:-) I am happy to report it has been a relatively drama-free week!! (Yayeeeee me!) Of course, it has helped that I have been on holiday for a week and have not had to engage much with the general public. Random VERY IMPORTANT Information: I have …
I want to quit
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written the 27th May 2021 I want to quit (every second day) 12 weeks to go should I just walk away? It’s more painful than I can ever describe Feelings of overwhelm from which I cannot hide When children’s happiness is being put last It’s such a painful trigger (a …
Feels like skin
Approximate reading time: 1 min Written the 26th May 2021 I’m not sure what’s got over me? A change A shift of sorts I see. Conscious of my breath (almost all of the time) Using it more to calm myself down More able to stand up and say I disagree You can have your own …
The Bully
Written the 26 May 2021 You rant you rave about how you were bullied at school Your anger and bitterness is what you use for fuel In your mind you’re convinced that you’re defending your child but do you ever look at his face when you rant and go wild? Do you notice his terror …
Dearest Yoga Boy
Approximate reading time: 2min Written the 24 May 2021 Three weeks of yoga (I should be Zen and so calm) But I’m compelled to vent To raise the alarm Fuck you irritate The absolute shit out of me How on earth did I not Initially, see Was I mad in my head To pay …
What was I thinking?
Approximate reading time: 12 minutes This week has been amazing and terrible all at once:-) Let’s get the terrible out of the way. Sometimes I’m not quite sure if I am brave and keep pushing my boundaries or just plain stupid and keep crossing my boundaries. (It’s such a fine line you know!) After deciding …