Approximate reading time: 3min Written 18th of July 2021 A weight has been lifted It feels like I can breathe Not gripped in my gut strangled by anxiety I can fuck up I can fail I can get it all wrong That doesn’t mean I should never Ever belong The beauty of what I’m feeling …
Walk Away
Approximate reading time: 3 min Written the 15th of July 2021 So today I had a lesson of an epic kind When I felt hurt, angry and so undermined I spoke to my headteacher (a couple of days ago) would she mind if I let three of my parents know… That their child “might” be …
The big Heave Ho
Approximate reading time: 11 minutes Written the 14th July 2021 I’m staring at my delivery’s (£250 worth!) In hindsight I wish I’d given shopping a wide berth I treated myself To orthopaedic shoes I’ve needed them for ages They’ve been long overdue I finally had a bonified full-time job And I think I am worth …
A bull in a china shop
Approximate reading time: 2 min 13/07/21 It’s been a bit of an emotional day I approached the headteacher A little disgruntled to say “I’m really upset lunch was 15 minutes late” (If I’m honest, I was exhausted finding it hard to regulate) Nursery and reception have no morning break For lunchtime, we are allocated 30 …
I fit
Approximate reading time: 3min Written 12th July 2021 Today was amazing I had such a great day As I sat in the staffroom With some colleagues as we played… a domino championship I can’t remember the last time I’ve laughed so much It felt a little sublime I sat feeling connected Happy Anxiety free Grateful …
Dear John
Approximate reading time: 8 min Written the 7th July 2022 My teaching assistant John walked out today Irritated and angry that I had the audacity to say “I’m so frustrated I have so much work to get through It really doesn’t help when I have to do your job to” In fairness, he was leaving …
Grey Rock
Approximate reading time: 2min Written on the 4th July 2021 I’m done playing games Always trying to be nice A narcissist’s mood is like rolling a dice Never quite sure What you’ll get on each throw One day they love you The next day maybe no It’s exhausting trying Not to take it to heart …
The Adventures of Kale and Brug
Approximate Reading time: 9min I’m sorry it’s been ages since I have written anything fresh… I have been on holiday with my baby brother Bruce who flew over from South Africa. We spent 3 days in the Netherlands and then did a road trip to Germany and spent 3 days in, and around Münster. It …
Deep breaths
Approximate reading time: 14min Written the 3rd July 2021 I’ve been writing reports for the last three weeks it’s been exhausting and tiring (Been feeling pretty bleak) So conscious of my jaw that’s clenched like a rock But I’m happy I’m learning to quietly take stock Of my emotions my feelings inside of me And …
How hard?
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 1st July 2021 It’s been a horrible week Triggering so much shame Dealing with a toxic parent who is so quick to blame I wish I had the courage to call her on her shit To stand up for myself put a stop to this But alas that’s not …