Approximate reading time: 3min I don’t really know how to process what I am feeling right now.I’m feeling angry, I’m feeling heartbroken, I’m feeling like an anxious fucking wreck.After 5 weeks of looking for a 3-bed house with a HMO license for three people….my flatmates and I eventually decided that we needed to start looking …
Category: Anxiety/Depression
Lamaze Breathing Human
Approximate reading time: 5 min The house search continues. It’s still tough. The scary part is not knowing at what stage we should give up the search and just start looking for accommodation by ourselves. God knows it’s a lot easier finding a room in a pre-existing house than it is finding an empty home …
My 2024 Worry Inventory
In 2022 I started a worry book. I did. Sometimes I find I get so bogged down worrying about things that inevitably that I decided to start my own worry inventory. (I needed visual proof that my worry was useless!!) I have only used about 3 A4 size pages in 2 years (Which, personally, I …
My family of Parts
Approximate reading time: 10min 31st October 2021 I awoke this morning With that familiar dread A headache A stuffy nose Anxious thoughts in my head I notice a voice Bitterly say “So much for the calmness You preached yesterday!” I peer outside The rain is pouring down No garden this morning “Fuck it!” I frown …
Kilometers vs Miles
Approximate reading time: 10 min It’s been a good week:-) I am currently 2 weeks DATING FREE… and I am starting to feel human again. I am happy to report that my parent interviews for my assignment are finally getting coded. The melancholy has subsided….. and the zoning out on Netflix crap has been minimal. …
Lyla
Approximate reading time: 5 minutes The written post is coming tomorrow xxx Written 25th of September 2021 “It is a joy to be hidden, and disaster not to be found.” ― D.W. Winnicott It hasn’t been an easy week I will admit At this precise moment I feel like absolute shit First that heart breaking class …
A Day in the Life of a Supply Teacher
Approximate reading time: 12 minutes Well, I wish I could say that the possession was over and that I had annexed all my sad, lonely perplexed parts to the back of the cupboard (Where frankly sometimes I think they should stay!) But that would be a lie. And for the sake of authenticity, I’m trying …
The Possession
Approximate reading time: 12 min It feels like my inner children Lila, Lola and Mara-Keres are currently fighting to the death for the possession of my body. Frankly, I would rather not be writing anything in this state. How I have handled them in the past is to simply fall off the radar until I …
My Poetry Ban
Approximate reading time: 3 min Written the 27th July 2021 I was doing a CI session Tonight with a new friend I couldn’t stop crying From the moment we logged in He was patient and kind not a worry on his face “Your tears are welcome Gayle Let’s give them some space.” “It’s crazy!” I …
Deep breaths
Approximate reading time: 14min Written the 3rd July 2021 I’ve been writing reports for the last three weeks it’s been exhausting and tiring (Been feeling pretty bleak) So conscious of my jaw that’s clenched like a rock But I’m happy I’m learning to quietly take stock Of my emotions my feelings inside of me And …