Approximate reading time: 10 min It’s been a good week:-) I am currently 2 weeks DATING FREE… and I am starting to feel human again. I am happy to report that my parent interviews for my assignment are finally getting coded. The melancholy has subsided….. and the zoning out on Netflix crap has been minimal. …
Category: Anxiety/Depression
Lyla
Approximate reading time: 5 minutes The written post is coming tomorrow xxx Written 25th of September 2021 “It is a joy to be hidden, and disaster not to be found.” ― D.W. Winnicott It hasn’t been an easy week I will admit At this precise moment I feel like absolute shit First that heart breaking class …
A Day in the Life of a Supply Teacher
Approximate reading time: 12 minutes Well, I wish I could say that the possession was over and that I had annexed all my sad, lonely perplexed parts to the back of the cupboard (Where frankly sometimes I think they should stay!) But that would be a lie. And for the sake of authenticity, I’m trying …
The Possession
Approximate reading time: 12 min It feels like my inner children Lila, Lola and Mara-Keres are currently fighting to the death for the possession of my body. Frankly, I would rather not be writing anything in this state. How I have handled them in the past is to simply fall off the radar until I …
My Poetry Ban
Approximate reading time: 3 min Written the 27th July 2021 I was doing a CI session Tonight with a new friend I couldn’t stop crying From the moment we logged in He was patient and kind not a worry on his face “Your tears are welcome Gayle Let’s give them some space.” “It’s crazy!” I …
Deep breaths
Approximate reading time: 14min Written the 3rd July 2021 I’ve been writing reports for the last three weeks it’s been exhausting and tiring (Been feeling pretty bleak) So conscious of my jaw that’s clenched like a rock But I’m happy I’m learning to quietly take stock Of my emotions my feelings inside of me And …
So much for honesty
Approximate reading time: 10min Written the 25th June 2021 I was offered this reception job On a full-time contract Finally paid for the summer holidays (Fantastic! Imagine that!) After ten long years of being self-employed A regular pay check I was overjoyed Absolutely elated things were finally on track Except for one tiny minuscule, little fact …
Holiday Blues
Approximate reading time: 2 minutes Written 5th of June 2021 My birthday celebration a weekend away A riverside cabin and all I feel is grey . Enveloped in sadness all I want to do is cry I am sitting here wondering Why, fucking why? Why do holidays always trigger so much grief What is the …
Weekend Away
Approximate reading time: 4min Written the 4th June 2021 A gorgeous cabin in New Forest for the weekend my first holiday EVER away with my best friend I should feel happy, excited to finally be getting away by the time I boarded the train I felt nothing but dismay Completely overwhelmed drowned by anxiety OMG …
The ‘Fakeness’ Queen
Approximate reading time: 10min I hope you are all well:-) I am happy to report it has been a relatively drama-free week!! (Yayeeeee me!) Of course, it has helped that I have been on holiday for a week and have not had to engage much with the general public. Random VERY IMPORTANT Information: I have …