Approximate reading time: 12 min It feels like my inner children Lila, Lola and Mara-Keres are currently fighting to the death for the possession of my body. Frankly, I would rather not be writing anything in this state. How I have handled them in the past is to simply fall off the radar until I …
Category: Anxiety/Depression
My Poetry Ban
Approximate reading time: 3 min Written the 27th July 2021 I was doing a CI session Tonight with a new friend I couldn’t stop crying From the moment we logged in He was patient and kind not a worry on his face “Your tears are welcome Gayle Let’s give them some space.” “It’s crazy!” I …
Deep breaths
Approximate reading time: 14min Written the 3rd July 2021 I’ve been writing reports for the last three weeks it’s been exhausting and tiring (Been feeling pretty bleak) So conscious of my jaw that’s clenched like a rock But I’m happy I’m learning to quietly take stock Of my emotions my feelings inside of me And …
So much for honesty
Approximate reading time: 10min Written the 25th June 2021 I was offered this reception job On a full-time contract Finally paid for the summer holidays (Fantastic! Imagine that!) After ten long years of being self-employed A regular pay check I was overjoyed Absolutely elated things were finally on track Except for one tiny minuscule, little fact …
Holiday Blues
Approximate reading time: 2 minutes Written 5th of June 2021 My birthday celebration a weekend away A riverside cabin and all I feel is grey . Enveloped in sadness all I want to do is cry I am sitting here wondering Why, fucking why? Why do holidays always trigger so much grief What is the …
Weekend Away
Approximate reading time: 4min Written the 4th June 2021 A gorgeous cabin in New Forest for the weekend my first holiday EVER away with my best friend I should feel happy, excited to finally be getting away by the time I boarded the train I felt nothing but dismay Completely overwhelmed drowned by anxiety OMG …
The ‘Fakeness’ Queen
Approximate reading time: 10min I hope you are all well:-) I am happy to report it has been a relatively drama-free week!! (Yayeeeee me!) Of course, it has helped that I have been on holiday for a week and have not had to engage much with the general public. Random VERY IMPORTANT Information: I have …
Hold the line
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written the 23rd May 2021 Avicii is dead!? Three years ago! How can this be? How did I NOT know? Well in fairness I know the answer to that Ten years ago I made myself a pact to stop watching the news reading newspapers and magazines which only fuelled my …
Dysregulation
Approximate reading time: 6 minutes I find it very interesting how so much of my life at the moment, somehow seems to link in with each new poem at hand. Same life lessons, different contexts. ****** So, last week was pretty great. I was a happy mummy to one doggy child. While walking Bailey …
Time for Everything
Approximate reading time: 4 minutes Last week was a super chilled week. I had two days of lectures and two days with lovely Bailey. Dolly’s mum has decided to send Dolly to doggy daycare during the week so now I only have Bailey to contend with. I have to admit it’s much easier having one …