Approximate reading time: 6 minutes I find it very interesting how so much of my life at the moment, somehow seems to link in with each new poem at hand. Same life lessons, different contexts. ****** So, last week was pretty great. I was a happy mummy to one doggy child. While walking Bailey …
Category: Anxiety/Depression
Time for Everything
Approximate reading time: 4 minutes Last week was a super chilled week. I had two days of lectures and two days with lovely Bailey. Dolly’s mum has decided to send Dolly to doggy daycare during the week so now I only have Bailey to contend with. I have to admit it’s much easier having one …
Thank you
Written 2 April 2021 I’m still trying to finish “Finding my words” A month and a half later isn’t that absurd I’m suddenly very mindful that I need to take a break I’m emotional, teary my chest physically aches So I quietly sit down take some time to meditate A hopeful attempt, perhaps some calmness …
I H.A.T.E Yoga!
Approximate reading time: 4 min Written 28th April 2021 Bessel Van de Kolk author of the ‘The body keeps score’ quotes nothing heals trauma significantly more than doing yoga connecting to your breath…. (honestly, I’d rather pull teeth instead) I’ve tried stupid yoga many times before every single time I want to hightail for the …
The final decision
Approximate Reading time: 10 min Written 22nd of April 2021 My first EMDR session was scheduled for today I woke up more anxious than I care to say I’m not a morning person (Understatement of the year) Sometimes it’s 2pm before my anxiety disappears When I’m feeling like this the walk to school is never …
The Grumpy one
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written the 20th April 2021 I want to write about something That triggers me so It’s been a long time coming (so finally here I go) My TA, Mrs Shawnigan Has been at the school for years I’m 100% certain she genuinely cares She is good at her job she …
On the wings of a dream
Approximate reading time: 6 minutes Written the 17 April 2021 Last night’s dream was more gruesome than I’d like to admit I don’t really want to write… it feels pretty shit But my poetry was started from analysing my dreams somehow journaling them brings clarity (well so it seems) An ex-friend someone I used to …
Exhaustion
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 14th of April 2021 I’m exhausted! I’m exhausted! I’m so fucking tired My defences are shot I feel so completely wired No safety, no containment just over-sensitivity I’m so fucking exhausted of people’s opinions hurting me I get it! I know… I give them that power I’m the one …
Developmental Trauma
Approximate reading time 15 min Happy Easter:-) Today was my last day with Poppy and Ginger. What can I say, as always they were adorable. They pretty much followed me everywhere in that house for ten days solid. Poppy was happy to sleep in the room that I was occupying. But Ginger wouldn’t sleep unless …
Unpacking the anxiety…
Approximate reading time: 11 min I have a confession to make…. In my last post I lied…. Well, it was a teeny lie by omission …. I said last week was “fun but exhausting” …. Although there were elements of fun to it what I should have actually said was “last week was emotional, draining …