Dealing with Grief, Friendship, Gratitude, Uncategorized

Day 12: Be Brave Challenge – Mother’s Day

I have been lucky enough to travel quite a bit in my lifetime which means I have spent a fair bit of time sitting in airports watching people. The duality of energy in airports always fascinates me. On the one hand, you have people eagerly awaiting the arrival of loved ones. Smiling happy, joyful, excited people….you can’t help but want to jump up and wave that “welcome home “banner with them.๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘ฆโ€๐Ÿ‘ฆ๐Ÿ’ On the other hand, of course, you have people saying goodbye to loved ones. Their heartbreak, loneliness and sadness is almost tangible….now you just want to jump up and give them a hug. Today I was thinking Mothers day is a lot like airports – depending on your perception of course. It is such a beautiful, happy day for showing gratitude to all the wonderful mothers out there. But it can without a doubt be a day of great sadness for just as many people. There are those that have lost their mothers, those who have, perhaps, never even had the privilege of knowing their mothers, those mothers that have heartbreakingly lost a child or those women who have always had a deep desire to have children..but for whatever reason have never had that dream realised. So today I have especially been thinking of all those women (and men) who have felt a little lost and I just wanted you to know that you are not alone. ๐Ÿ’žโค๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’—

So no guessing I’ve been missing my mum today.๐Ÿ˜ย (let it never be said that I am not transparent.) Yesterday I was looking through all my mother’s old watsap messages that I still have on my phone. Her favourite story was to tell me how desperately she wanted a girl, how she had prayed so hard and begged my father so long to have a third child. This was always followed by “My precious daughter you are such a blessing”. She must have told and watsaped that story to me at least 3 times in her last year….maybe in some weird way she was preparing me? Making sure I would never forget how loved and wanted I was. My mother and I didn’t always seeย ๐Ÿ‘€eye to eyeย ๐Ÿ‘€but I am so grateful that she was always so loving and effusive when it came to expressing her love for her children. There was never any doubt that she absolutely adored us. (It also made me laugh to see how many emoticons the women used๐Ÿ˜‚….no guessing where I get that habit from – Although she makes me look like an emoticon virgin๐Ÿ˜œ)

I would just like to end off my random thoughts with a little bit of gratitude to one of my mums best friends Charlotte. I am not sure how I would have got through my mums death without her. She has never had her own children….so we have pretty much filled a void in each other’s lives and adopted each other.โ˜บ 
I spent mothers day with her which was rather fitting as she has been the mother in my life this last year and a half (FYI We decided to visit the animal welfare to visit all the cats that are currently mother and fatherless๐Ÿฑ.) I know for a fact that Charlotte never, ever thought she would have the experience, of being mum. I guess its proof that if you keep your heart๐Ÿ’–open, you never know what the universe will have in store for you.

Anyway, I would just lovely Charlotte to know….she is doing an amazing job, that I wouldn’t change a single thing about her and that I love her more than words.

Thanks for reading, have a beautiful day tomorrow ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ’ฅ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿ’Ž๐Ÿนโญ๐ŸŒ ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿ”ฅ

#love my mothers