Approximate reading time: 2 min Written on the 28 th 2021 Memories this morning of being a little girl tears overflowed when I got overwhelmed Hating the anger Hearing those words shout “Keep it up and I’ll give you something to cry about!” As if my frustration and hurt simply weren’t enough I grew …
Duck Boy
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written 24th April 2021 Duck Boy I have something pivotal that I need to express I’m allergic to dating I feel I must confess When it comes to dating my patience is gone I am so fucking exhausted to even think of ‘the one’ But I said ‘yes‘ to a …
The final decision
Approximate Reading time: 10 min Written 22nd of April 2021 My first EMDR session was scheduled for today I woke up more anxious than I care to say I’m not a morning person (Understatement of the year) Sometimes it’s 2pm before my anxiety disappears When I’m feeling like this the walk to school is never …
The Grumpy one
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written the 20th April 2021 I want to write about something That triggers me so It’s been a long time coming (so finally here I go) My TA, Mrs Shawnigan Has been at the school for years I’m 100% certain She genuinely cares She is good at her job She …
A walk with an HSP
Approximate reading time: 5 minutes Written the 18th April 2021 I woke up this morning feeling so light Free from the anxiety That has gripped my chest tight Not one single dream well not that I remember Nothing to analyse (or meticulously dismember) Just happiness Relief I will get through I have the tools I …
On the wings of a dream
Approximate reading time: 6 minutes Written the 17 April 2021 Last night’s dream was more gruesome than I’d like to admit I don’t really want to write… it feels pretty shit But my poetry was started from analysing my dreams somehow journaling them brings clarity (well so it seems) An ex-friend someone I used to …
Loved
Written 15th April 2021 I’m sitting in my chair overwhelmed with gratitude tears stream down my face what else can I do? But capture this feeling of absolute love put down on paper what it feels like to be enough It’s been a horrible day still reeling emotionally inside completely exhausted still wanting to hide …
Exhaustion
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 14th of April 2021 I’m exhausted! I’m exhausted! I’m so fucking tired My defences are shot I feel so completely wired No safety, no containment just over-sensitivity I’m so fucking exhausted of people’s opinions hurting me I get it! I know… I give them that power I’m the one …
Orchids and Dandelions
Approximate reading time: 9min So, I declared to my therapist, rather determinedly, last week that I wasn’t going to take on any more dog-sitting jobs that were longer than a couple of days. (10 days is just too long!) It was an epiphany moment of self-love and genuine self-care I tell you! My reasons were …
Developmental Trauma
Approximate reading time 15 min Happy Easter:-) Today was my last day with Poppy and Ginger. What can I say, as always they were adorable. They pretty much followed me everywhere in that house for ten days solid. Poppy was happy to sleep in the room that I was occupying. But Ginger wouldn’t sleep unless …