Approximate reading time: 6 minutes Written the 17 April 2021 Last night’s dream was more gruesome than I’d like to admit I don’t really want to write… it feels pretty shit But my poetry was started from analysing my dreams somehow journaling them brings clarity (well so it seems) An ex-friend someone I used to …
Loved
Written 15th April 2021 I’m sitting in my chair overwhelmed with gratitude tears stream down my face what else can I do? But capture this feeling of absolute love put down on paper what it feels like to be enough It’s been a horrible day still reeling emotionally inside completely exhausted still wanting to hide …
Exhaustion
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 14th of April 2021 I’m exhausted! I’m exhausted! I’m so fucking tired My defences are shot I feel so completely wired No safety, no containment just over-sensitivity I’m so fucking exhausted of people’s opinions hurting me I get it! I know… I give them that power I’m the one …
Orchids and Dandelions
Approximate reading time: 9min So, I declared to my therapist, rather determinedly, last week that I wasn’t going to take on any more dog-sitting jobs that were longer than a couple of days. (10 days is just too long!) It was an epiphany moment of self-love and genuine self-care I tell you! My reasons were …
Developmental Trauma
Approximate reading time 15 min Happy Easter:-) Today was my last day with Poppy and Ginger. What can I say, as always they were adorable. They pretty much followed me everywhere in that house for ten days solid. Poppy was happy to sleep in the room that I was occupying. But Ginger wouldn’t sleep unless …
The “Enablers”
Approximate Reading time: 6 min Written 4th April 2012 I’m feeling a little irritated going to purge it out A random comment passed today Which was essentially about… My interaction with Jude (the horrible cook) On our engagement yesterday in which we both partook The headteacher gave reassurance I’m not the only one Who finds …
Dear Jude
Approximate Reading time:5 min Written 3rd April 2021 Sometimes I wish I could live in a cocoon Hide away from people where I feel safe and immune People often trigger me so immensely (Especially those who are mean and unfriendly) My school is so lovely the staff are amicable and nice… But as always one …
Your Poem
Approximate reading time: 7min Written 2nd April 2021 I don’t really write about my dreams anymore They pretty much continue as they always have before Random images from my distant past memories, old ghosts never an A list-cast But last night you were back in them again I have dreamed of you since I don’t …
Finding my words…
Approximate reading time: 14 min Thank you for all the prayers…. Poppy is pooping again! (It’s not quite the right colour mind you, but one must be grateful for small miracles. 😉 As I said in my post on Saturday this poem took me almost two months to write. Two months of continual fighting with …
A day of poop
Approximate reading time: 3min Today has been a fun day!!! I came down this morning to find that the pork ribs I had ordered with my Chinese last night had magically disappeared. I thought I had put them in the fridge. Mmmm apparently not….. and what is that I see in the dog’s basket but …