Written the 19th June 2021 I woke up this morning I lay awake Willing myself a fresh start to make Conscious now a fundamental shift in me Not so tormented by dreaded anxiety Except for the last two weeks (since my wrathful birthday poem) Fury, anger and rage will not leave me alone It’s like …
Manic Monday
Approximate reading time: 10 min I have a confession to make. When I posted my “I’m sooooo happy post” last Monday I had pretty much had the worst day teaching I have had in just over a year. (It was horrible) All I needed to do was come home and proofread my post, one last …
See a man about a ball
Approximate reading time: 5 min Written 11 June 2021 I walked home today in a thunderstorm with no umbrella (No, that’s not usually the norm) Just feeling so peaceful happy and contained Loving the sensation of the gentle summer rain So grateful to be alive to have a place to call home to have friends …
Happy anniversary (Me!)
Approximate reading time: 7 min I hope you are all well:-) Today is the one-year anniversary of me posting a blog post every week (at least) for a full year. (It may not seem like that big a deal to most people but for me it’s huge!!) It’s only taken 13 years of intermittent blogging …
Bailey’s song
I hope you are all well. Sorry, tonight I am totally cheating:-) But it’s been a long, hard day of actual work (AKA teaching) and I don’t have an ounce of energy to write anything of substance at the moment. The only real news that I have is that Bailey for some reason, (known only …
Top Dog
Approximate reading time: 6 min I hope you are well:-) It’s been an amazing week. For starters, I actually finished my assignment, early!!! (Wonders never cease!) I turned up to work this morning only to discover that there had been a mix-up with the agency and that the school hadn’t actually made a booking. I …
All in a day’s work
Approximate reading time: 4 min I’m stuck at an impasse! I need to post something by tomorrow because I have successfully posted one blog post a week (at least) for almost a year now. On the 14th of July 2023 it will be my one-year anniversary of being a bonafide, serious, committed blogger! (For someone …
Holiday Blues
Approximate reading time: 2 minutes Written 5th of June 2021 My birthday celebration a weekend away A riverside cabin and all I feel is grey . Enveloped in sadness all I want to do is cry I am sitting here wondering Why, fucking why? Why do holidays always trigger so much grief What is the …
Weekend Away
Approximate reading time: 4min Written the 4th June 2021 A gorgeous cabin in New Forest for the weekend my first holiday EVER away with my best friend I should feel happy, excited to finally be getting away by the time I boarded the train I felt nothing but dismay Completely overwhelmed drowned by anxiety OMG …
Gaslighting yourself
Approximate reading time: 4 min I have had a pretty good week. Dare I say it…..??? ….but it feels like I am starting to land up at some lovely schools these days….. Maybe the schools are better or maybe I am just a bit tougher in myself and not reacting as much, as I used …