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Written 16th November 2021

Today was just one of those

Truly beautiful days

Where everything flows

The world feels calm and OK

Although I woke up this morning

Contemplating a sickie

Bloody period pain

Feeling blue and ickie…

But then I did my meditation

(I didn’t want to stop)

It’s amazing how lately

It seems less like a job

Rather than something

That I just need to get through

Meditation has become something

I actually look forward to

Personally, I can’t believe it

How many years?

I’m so grateful I stuck with it

I’m grateful I persevered

But work came in

In a reception class

In one of my favourite schools

I decided not to pass

And as I’m dressing I notice

The thoughts swimming around my head

The usual neurotic thoughts

That always fill me with dread

They pretty much reoccur

(Religiously every month)

When the painters are in

They are hard to expunge

“You are pretty much a hermit

You never go out

All you do day and night

Is paint and write….

So realistically the odds

Of you EVER meeting someone

Are probably about

Mmmmmm….

1 million to one

And more than that

You want an amazing, human being

Who has similar passions, goals

A deep desire for meaning

Someone who knows who they are

Who can speak up and be true

Someone who’s courageous and honest

In all that they do“

Flushed with sudden grief

As the bitter voice hissed

“A man like that clearly

Doesn’t exist!”

In an instant another voice

Bullhorned its way through

“Oh my God listen to yourself

How arrogant are you?

There’s a world full of incredible

Human beings out there

With patchwork lives

That they too long to share

So many people creating

Wonderful things

Standing in their truth

Finding their own meaning!”

But this voice wasn’t critical

It wasn’t unkind

It gently stepped in to help

My heart and ego realign

To remind me, that there are

Infinite possibilities

Of men in this world

Wonderful for me

It snapped me magically

Out of my funk

I set my intention:

Today’d be peaceful and fun!

Subsequently, I spent the day

In a truly beautiful class

With such friendly and kind 

Teacher Assisting staff

When I walked in the door

One strode up confidently

And actually, shook my hand

To say hello and greet me.

“Oh my God” I said

No one has done that for years!

Since covid has started

The world has been drowning in fear.”

We both started laughing

It honestly felt so good

To connect to another human

Like we used to do

And then the tiniest

Cutest

Most adorable little boy

Just filled my day today

With absolute joy

When it came to cuteness

He’d win the crown

(He’d beat the Gerry Mcquire kid

Honestly hands down)

He had a disability

It’s not clear what

It had something to do

With his tiny little heart

So hence the reason

He was so incredibly small

And all he wanted to do

Was play on a wall

He’d climb up and shout:

 “Look, look at me!”

Then he’d make this huge

Brave, daring leap

Right from the very top

Of that high wall

(Which was ummm 30cm perhaps?

If that at all)

I’d clap and I’d whoop

As he beamed with pride

He had more fun on that wall

Than any playground ride

So that was my day

Simply happy and joyful

One of those days

When I feel calm and fulfilled

I wanted to record it

So it never goes away

And invite the universe to send

More of them my way