Approximate reading time: 8 min Written 29 March 2022 Today I’m a little tearful Not sure what’s going on inside But I showed up I meditated (In my beautiful garden outside) Halfway through the tears started When in popped my mum I didn’t hold them back I just let them come Because for all of …
Category: Dealing with Grief
How to not give a fuck
Approximate reading time: 8 min FYI: There is no point to this post. You will learn nothing! You might even be wasting 8 minutes of your life. (Don’t say I didn’t warn you!!) For those of you that worry about me being single forever and ever and ever. Rest assured, I will not. I have …
The real perpetrator
Approximate reading time: 5 min Written 5th April 2023 I just finished a live lecture With Gabor It left so much emotion swimming Feelings so raw He was working with a woman Who was struggling with her past She’d had a sexual encounter That had left a deep mark She said she was drunk But …
My Tears
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written on the 28 th 2021 Memories this morning of being a little girl tears overflowed when I got overwhelmed Hating the anger Hearing those words shout “Keep it up and I’ll give you something to cry about!” As if my frustration and hurt simply weren’t enough I grew …
Childless by Chance
Written 17th March 2021 Grief like love Takes on many forms Yet we live in a world That so often ignores… “Be positive Don’t look back always uplift You, alone have the power to make the mental mind shift” But so many griefs Are engraved in our souls A child losing a parent Will always …
1%
Approximate reading time: 10 minutes I have writer’s block. I do. I hate it when this happens….I have been so excited to write the final attachment post. And yet It’s a dismal state of affairs. (Sometimes I feel like the only thing 100% consistent about me is my innate ability to be completely inconsistent!) Were …
Making Time
Written 4th February 2021 Gloom-filled dreams engulf me, I wake up with a heavy heart. Chaotic feelings of loss and guilt, flying off the chart The entire world is flooded, murky water everywhere. I’m completely overwhelmed, anxious, feeling scared. I take my little sister, out for a morning swim. Seriously, why did I even let …
Tiny Pieces
(Written 25 January 2021) How is it that after so many years, thoughts of you can still move me to tears? Ghosts from the past congeal in my mind, friendships lost through the ages of time. How is it that we play such a valuable role, caring and loving for each other’s souls… Then in …
O.r.d.i.n.a.r.y M.o.m.e.n.t.s
I lost my dad in 2010 and my mother in 2016. In 2016, 8 months before my mother past away we lost Anna. Anna started working for our family before I was born and in many ways, she was my second mother. I wrote about my grief in a post in 2018. Apparently, I wasnt …
Processing Grief: Clearing the space for Little Anjezë
(Reading time is approximately 25 min Hello all So I was searching through my 196 poems trying to figure out which one next? Neurotic Angel, of course, was demanding that I find a happy one. “Gees you need to lighten the mood a bit! If you are not careful you are going to lose half …