(Approximate reading time: 5 min) It has been an interesting week. I feel like I have been flying sky high on the fumes of a) My attachment studies (which I am loving!) b) The fact that I am blogging regularly (Wohooo – Yayee meee!!!) c) And that 13 days ago I finally found a tenant …
Category: Anxiety/Depression
Flipsides of a coin
(Approximate reading time: 8 min) Dam, this back-blogging is difficult;-) I kind of see why people so often ‘sanitize’ their stories and leave out the yucky, dark parts of it, because when you are feeling happy and sunny….. it’s sometimes the LAST thing you want to go back to. At the moment, I feel a …
A day of contrast
I just have to say, today was AMAZING!! I had my first day of online lectures for my master’s course in Attachment Theory and… I’m not going to go too much into the logistics of it all…cause I am a little too excited to even be sitting down and writing at the moment…..but I just …
Triggered
Estimated Reading time: 8 min A little catch-up in my story;-) In February 2021 I had been working full time, for just over a month, teaching in the Reception class (with the Lovely Mrs Shawnigan;-) and that was when I started my Compassionate Inquiry studies with Gabor Mate. The world by that point was slowly …
The Power of Words
Approximate reading time: 12min In 2021 I accepted a job teaching in a reception class for 6 months. Yes, I had previously sworn NEVER EVER to go back into long-term teaching again, (numerous times.) But it was one of those situations where everything just seemed to dam-near perfect. 1. The class was amazingly well-behaved. 2. …
Making Time
Written 4th February 2021 Gloom-filled dreams engulf me, I wake up with a heavy heart. Chaotic feelings of loss and guilt, flying off the chart The entire world is flooded, murky water everywhere. I’m completely overwhelmed, anxious, feeling scared. I take my little sister, out for a morning swim. Seriously, why did I even let …
Young Girl
(Approximate reading time: 6 min) It’s been interesting to look back through the years at how many flatmates and friends I attracted into my life who had difficult, painful relationships with their mothers. Some of the stories I have heard have been absolutely heartbreaking but the underlying feelings and emotions are always the same. I …
The pain of not being seen
Estimated reading time: 5min I found this little story below in my journal a couple of weeks ago. The horrible thing about becoming more aware of what is going on around you is that once you start seeing something, you can’t EVER go back to “unseeing it” Which, honestly sometimes fucking sucks! I wish I …
THE ‘NO PLAN’ plan… (PART 2)
Estimated reading time 10 min The saga continues…..more tea will be needed!!😉 So a couple of weeks prior to my call with ‘Snooty RRT Lady” I stumbled across some videos online by Dr. Gabor Maté who is sought after for his expertise in addiction, stress, childhood development and childhood trauma. Rather than offering a ‘quick fix’ solution …
That WAS the plan! (PART 1)
Approximate reading time: 20 min Just warning you, you might need to make some tea….this is gonna be a long one:-) Quite a lot has gone on these last two years so I thought I might do a little catch-up with all that I have been doing with my time. I mentioned in my “The …