(Written 26 February 2021) Forgiveness A word A feeling A thought So difficult to explain… Forgiveness A word A feeling A thought Intertwines with Insidious shame… Anger seethes Like a dog gnaws a bone I say “I’m okay” In my head, I throw stones Why was I born With a skin of cellophane Words burn …
Author: Gayle Hill
Tiny Pieces
(Written 25 January 2021) How is it that after so many years, thoughts of you can still move me to tears? Ghosts from the past congeal in my mind, friendships lost through the ages of time. How is it that we play such a valuable role, caring and loving for each other’s souls… Then in …
Red Hot Shame
Oh My God, I’m on a roll!! 🙂 5th post in 10 days!! It’s amazing how much easier it’s getting to click that little (Could the internal angst be subsiding?) Although that being said….I still don’t share my blog posts on Facebook or Instagram. I used to when I posted a couple of years ago…. …
Ts’was I!
(Written 21 Feb 2021) Who’s the idiot who poured hot fat down the drain? 1 am last night (Good Lord was I insane?) All I wanted this weekend Was some peace to write (Besides this stupid poem No pen ‘n paper in sight.) As dirty dishes pile high I’ve plunged with glee Twice to shops …
My Crazy
(Written 6 February 2021) It’s been a whole month of me being a carnivore (Yes, you heard me right fruit and vegetables no more!) It sounds a little kooky (I must agree!) Meat, eggs and butter is all that I see. But hand on my heart this is not about calories but hopefully a simple …
O.r.d.i.n.a.r.y M.o.m.e.n.t.s
I lost my dad in 2010 and my mother in 2016. In 2016, 8 months before my mother past away we lost Anna. Anna started working for our family before I was born and in many ways, she was my second mother. I wrote about my grief in a post in 2018. Apparently, I wasnt …
Processing Grief: Clearing the space for Little Anjezë
(Reading time is approximately 25 min Hello all So I was searching through my 196 poems, trying to figure out which one next? Neurotic Angel, of course, was demanding that I find a happy one. “Gees, you need to lighten the mood a bit! If you are not careful, you are going to lose half …
The Parts of Me
(Written 14th March 2021) I was lying in bed Struggling to get up This overwhelming feeling My heart feels shut Anxiety has gripped me Badly this week Poetry has been hiding Refusing to speak Most days I struggle To even meditate I’ve cried so much It’s hard to regulate So, I crawl back into bed …
Anxiety
Hello all, So, on re-editing the old posts that I found in my “Post Graveyard” I found myself a wee bit confused. Wow! I sounded so happy! I said things like “Life was great” and “I have so much to be grateful for“. I just sounded so dam fucking perky! I found a huge part …
The one about the wedding dress…(Continued)
Hello all, I know, I know it feels like Christmas. 3 posts in one week! After 2 years of deathly silence, even I am in shock! Anyway, so my story continues with me now still owning two ‘bloodied’ wedding dresses that I cannot exchange AND apparently I still need to pass “Assertiveness Skills 101!” I …