Approximate reading time: 6 min Written the 20th April 2021 I want to write about something That triggers me so It’s been a long time coming (so finally here I go) My TA, Mrs Shawnigan Has been at the school for years I’m 100% certain She genuinely cares She is good at her job She …
Category: Anxiety/Depression
On the wings of a dream
Approximate reading time: 6 minutes Written the 17 April 2021 Last night’s dream was more gruesome than I’d like to admit I don’t really want to write… it feels pretty shit But my poetry was started from analysing my dreams somehow journaling them brings clarity (well so it seems) An ex-friend someone I used to …
Exhaustion
Approximate reading time: 6 min Written 14th of April 2021 I’m exhausted! I’m exhausted! I’m so fucking tired My defences are shot I feel so completely wired No safety, no containment just over-sensitivity I’m so fucking exhausted of people’s opinions hurting me I get it! I know… I give them that power I’m the one …
Developmental Trauma
Approximate reading time 15 min Happy Easter:-) Today was my last day with Poppy and Ginger. What can I say, as always they were adorable. They pretty much followed me everywhere in that house for ten days solid. Poppy was happy to sleep in the room that I was occupying. But Ginger wouldn’t sleep unless …
Unpacking the anxiety…
Approximate reading time: 11 min I have a confession to make…. In my last post I lied…. Well, it was a teeny lie by omission …. I said last week was “fun but exhausting” …. Although there were elements of fun to it what I should have actually said was “last week was emotional, draining …
“My God”
Approximate reading time: 9 min I hope you have had a good week so far. My week has been a little bit of a manic mess. (A far, far cry from last week!) I have been dogsitting lovely grampa Colin while continuing to look after Bailey for 3 days, and then walking Dolly as well. …
Big Girl Pants
Approximate reading time: 2 min Written 18th March 2021 Today I’m proud I’m so proud of me Please allow me a moment to gloat with glee Today I spoke up I made a choice Rather than keeping quiet I used my voice It felt pretty amazing to be honest, take a chance rather than continuing …
Hand on my heart
Approximate Reading time: 3 min Written the 5 March 2021 I had a CI training session last night I was determined there wouldn’t be a bloody tear in sight Last week’s session I was a weeping, blubbering mess overwhelmed and confused about stupid flatmate stress So, I chose a topic that was safe and mundane …
A busy couple of weeks
Approximate Reading time:12 min I feel like I haven’t written in months. My biggest apologies, but I have been knee-deep in online journals attempting to piece together my second assignment which was due today! I am finally finished and it feels a little bit like heaven at the moment!;-) Can I just say that finishing …
Todays Lesson
Written the 28th February 2021 you know I’d hoped I was done for the day no such luck I clearly have much more to say today in CI training 18 people in our group for a minute and a half I had to ‘check-in’- give the scoop on how I was feeling what’s going through …