Approximate reading time: 8 min I will admit for most of my life I have always hated that word ‘Blessed’. It’s a little bit of a trigger word for me. (Just a wee, little bit:-) As a young child, I remember sitting at our dinner table listening to grace being said, something about being ‘thankful …
The pain of not being seen
Estimated reading time: 5min I found this little story below in my journal a couple of weeks ago. The horrible thing about becoming more aware of what is going on around you is that once you start seeing something, you can’t EVER go back to “unseeing it” Which, honestly, sometimes fucking sucks! I wish I …
THE ‘NO PLAN’ plan… (PART 2)
Estimated reading time 10 min The saga continues…..more tea will be needed!!;-) So a couple of weeks prior to my call with ‘Snooty RRT Lady ‘, I stumbled across some videos online by Dr Gabor Maté, who is sought after for his expertise in addiction, stress, childhood development and childhood trauma. Rather than offering a ‘quick fix’ …
That WAS the plan! (PART 1)
Approximate reading time: 20 min Just warning you, you might need to make some tea….this is gonna be a long one:-) Quite a lot has gone on these last two years, so I thought I might do a little catch-up with all that I have been doing with my time. I mentioned in my “The …
The Silver Lining
(Written January 2021) Asylum seekers Flooding my brain, I’m teaching kiddies In the pouring rain. Mums are phoning me] Exhausted and overwrought. Crying their souls are lost (perhaps they’ve been bought?) Mrs Shawinigan’s moaning Imploring me: “They said my friend’s negative? How can that be?” “We’ve been friends for years She’s always had my back! …
The nice-cissists
Estimated reading time: 8 min I feel like 2020 was my wake-up call. I wrote about my experiences in “The stars are aligning” with much humour and jest but those 5 months were anything but fun for me. In hindsight, it was like the universe finally decided ENOUGH ALREADY!! (Oh that one!) A couple of …
Forgiveness
(Written 26 February 2021) Forgiveness A word A feeling A thought So difficult to explain… Forgiveness A word A feeling A thought Intertwines with Insidious shame… Anger seethes Like a dog gnaws a bone I say “I’m okay” In my head, I throw stones Why was I born With a skin of cellophane Words burn …
Tiny Pieces
(Written 25 January 2021) How is it that after so many years, thoughts of you can still move me to tears? Ghosts from the past congeal in my mind, friendships lost through the ages of time. How is it that we play such a valuable role, caring and loving for each other’s souls… Then in …
Red Hot Shame
Oh My God, I’m on a roll!! 🙂 5th post in 10 days!! It’s amazing how much easier it’s getting to click that little (Could the internal angst be subsiding?) Although that being said….I still don’t share my blog posts on Facebook or Instagram. I used to when I posted a couple of years ago…. …
Ts’was I!
(Written 21 Feb 2021) Who’s the idiot who poured hot fat down the drain? 1 am last night (Good Lord was I insane?) All I wanted this weekend Was some peace to write (Besides this stupid poem No pen ‘n paper in sight.) As dirty dishes pile high I’ve plunged with glee Twice to shops …